2 Timothy 2

Even if we are not faithful, he will remain faithful. He must be true to himself.

If we believe not, he continueth faithful, he cannot deny himself.

If we turn away from him, he will never turn away from us. He cannot do anything that is against his own nature.’

If we give up on him, he does not give up, for there's no way he can be false to himself.

If we are faithless [do not believe and are untrue to Him], He remains true (faithful to His Word and His righteous character), for He cannot deny Himself.

If we are faithless, he remains faithful, for he cannot disown himself.

Jos me olemme uskottomat, pysyy kuitenkin hän uskollisena, sillä itseänsä kieltää ei Hän saata.

-näin. sen näin.

the Fight Club

Sometimes when everything around me gets all blurry, when it seems there are only walls all around me, it makes me think if there really is any point in this. In this fight. This battle.
When all seems totally hopeless it makes me think of what´s the point in all this. Why am I running to this dead end? Can I really win this... is there even a chance to win this? If I can´t be even a little bit certain I´m gonna win in the end, am I fighting all in vain?
Doing this all for nothing, giving this all for nothing?

But, what is it really? What does it really mean? To Fight, I mean.
When we have things in our lives we really want to fight for even not knowing what the result is going to be.. the guestion is I guess.. Would it even be called fighting if we did know we eventually are going to win? Is it fighting for something if you know in the beginning that if you just keep doing this long enough, the result is going to be as you want it to be?
Or, is it.. that.. when you really have to fight for something... it´s like there never is any certainty about the result, but there is only this one little thing that keeps you going... this little beam of light... called Hope. A chance... of something good waiting there in the very end.
And of course.. to fight..there must be something worth fighting for.

So, if I really want to fight for my cause, It means I just have to live with the possibility of loosing, live with the fact I can´t be certain of what the result is going to be. But still hold on to Hope. Because that is what is going to keep me going. As long as it takes. As long as I´m willing.
That,I guess is what it means to fight for something.
And, whatever happens. Whatever the result turns out to be. At least I´m going to live knowing I never gave up but fought... for what really matters.
So, I think I join the Fight Club.

..taas polvilleen rakkaus taipuu..

a tsubuling poem/song that is not mine, but still moves something inside... ;)

Minä Sinua rakastan tiedän sen,
se ei ole vain hetken huumaa.
Se on nuotion hehku hiljainen,
ja roihua polttavan kuumaa.


Se ei sammu kun sammuvat hallayöt,
se ei kuole kun maassa on routa.
Se kestää arjet ja pehmeät yöt,
se kestää, on myrsky tai pouta.


Minä sinua rakastan, katsohan,
kuinka kirkkaasti tuikkivat tähdet.
Joka päivä ne sinulle lahjoitan,
jos kanssani matkalle lähdet.


Ja kun kuljemme raskain askelin,
ja aika tuo murheita tupaan.
Pidän kädestä sinua silloinkin,
yhä Sinua rakastaa lupaan.


Minä Sinua rakastan silloinkin,
jos ehdimme korkeaan ikään.
Olet edelleen minulle suloisin,
ei hellyyttä sammuta mikään.


Mitä siitä jos ryppyjä poskiin saat,
taikka kumaraan selkäsi taipuu.
Kun näen silmäsi kirkkaat ja kuulakkaat,
taas polvilleen rakkaus taipuu..



..taas polvilleen rakkaus taipuu..

a Flame too Burning

Is there a thing called loving too much? Can you love someone too much if it still is totally unselfish? Are there situations where you should somehow control the level of that loving, control that flame of love to keep it from burning too hot?

What if the other flame isn´t burnig as hot as yours? Can your loving be too strong, so big it suffocates the other one? The other love? So big it uses all the air? So you just have to make yourself to back up to give the other one room to breath. So you just have to try not to love that much.
Is it right? Can "I love you so much" also be a bad thing? Are there situations where we should only "love pretty much". I´ve always thought there is no need to say "I love you so much", or " I love you more than anything". Because in my mind, if you love someone, you just love. And by saying you love, you mean you love the whole of it, everything there is in you, everything you can and everything you are. If that is loving, how could there be a level of love higher than that? Loving so much.. If by saying you just love, you already love all there is in you to love someone. Your everything.
So, if "I love you" means "I love you my all, my everything", how could you love less? How could a flame be cooler? I don´t know. I guess to me to love means to have the fire. And the only option is to not have the fire. To not love. And I can´t see any in betweens.
But, can a flame be too burning? I used to think mine was. I still don´t know. still don´t know.

In God we trust

..it says on a One dollar bill. Or on the album cover of Stryper. (!!!)
Do we?
If we asked any christians if they trust in God, I reckon the answer would be like 90 percently Yes. (often accompanied with "of course!")

So, why do we worry so much? If we say we really do trust in Him.
If we buy a brand new car and we drive around with it, I guess we would also say we trust in it. I mean it´s good and new so why wouldn´t we. So, we drive around and we don´t worry about it "suddenly brealing down" or "what if it just explodes, like out of the blue", or "what if it just stops running right when we are in the middle of nowhere at night and the battery of the mobile is totally dead or you have just changed the PIN code and you accidently turn the phone off and you can´t get it on because you can´t remember the new one and there are serial killers behind every tree.." (btw, the PIN code is your wife´s birthday.. ;) Or "what if the fuel meter is somehow totally wrong and you run out of gas in the red lights in the middle of the rush hour in the biggest intersection of the city and you´re wearing high heels and a mini skirt and it´s raining cats and dogs so NO ONE will come and help you out.."

I guess all that sounds a bit ridicilous. You don´t drive around thinking like that, you don´t worry about that stuff. Of course that is "a bit" exaggerated. But the fact is, if we trust someone or something, we don´t go around worrying. It´s a whole different thing to be prepared for surprises, for unexpeced things, because life sure is full of them. But if you concentrate on worrying things, like while driving the new car. You totally loose the joy and feeling of driving that new car.

So, how about the almighty God? What´s He got to do with this?
We have this great God-thing we say we trust and who we are travelling with through this life. And, still we WORRY. We worry about if we´re ever gonna get a job, or if we do get it is it going to be permanent with the economic recession hitting soon. And are ever gonna find a wife/husband for ourselves and if we do is she or he going to stay and make us happy and are we going to have kids and if we do are they going to be healthy and if they do will they end up being young criminals at the age of 5 robbing the old ladies of the neighbourhood and finally ending up in jail as junkies.

Well, ok, maybe we stay in good health, but then, there are always accidents lurking behind our backs. One serious possibility is that we end up crashing our tricycle with the big tree across the road and and we wake up in the hopital paralyzed from the neck down. -How do we scratch our bellybuttons then. Gosh!!

What´s the point? We say we trust, and still live our life worrying about all that crap.
There are lots of verses in the bible talking about that. Don´t really need to mention them. You know how God is taking care of even the little flowers and the birds so how wouldn´t He take care of you. And would He really give you a stone when you´re asking for a peace of bread and so on..

So you get it? Ok. But still we end up doing this..

Let us picture our life as a big tent. Often we build the tent up using only the "earthly" things as poles, Ok, we have a lot of those different little poles supporting the tent sheet, but when one of the poles breaks down, let´s say a relationship for example, and we only concentrate on worrying about that "broken pole", with a little extra rain (that somehow usually happens to be right there) on some other areas of our life, it causes the tent sheet to sag and with the extra pressure of the rain water collecting in the same spot eventually the pole next to it (maybe our health or a job etc) breaks down ant tears the next one down and eventually the whole tent, the whole life, collapses.
There just is nothing strong enough to hold up the weight of the whole tent, the whole life by itself. We say we trust God, but we don´t build our lives upon Him.

But let us build up the very same tent, only using God as the center pole. So you have this one thick and strong center pole we hang the sheet on, and then we just add the smaller poles in the corners, which are the important things in our lives like relationships and health and job and so on.
So, again, the relationship-pole breaks down, the girlfriend leaves you. And the extra heavy rain just happens to come around, like it already wasn´t hard enough. Eventually the pressure can even break another pole, you loose your health or your job. So the sides of the tent sheet flap wildly in the storm. And it hurts, it hurts when a part of your world collapses. But no matter how hard it rains, how hard the storm gets, the big center pole is there. Standing firmly, standing strong. And it won´t let the whole tent to collapse. No matter what happens. Your whole world will not collapse. There is something that holds it up and gives you time to build up new poles on the other areas of your life and to make the life steady again. You can count on it. You can trust it.

If we believe in God. If we trust in God. We should build up our lives as the latter tent is built. Using God as the center pole and building our lives around that. And when we do that, we can live our life trusting. Worry free. And doing that, we can fully enjoy the ride, feel the life.
If we say we trust, then let´s freaking trust!

Leave the worrying part for horses, that´s what they have such a long faces for anyway... :)

a Heart shaped box

I have been thinking. No, not about food this time, but about life. Or living actually. What is it to live? How do we really live? Like how can we be sure that we are really living this life, not only surviving it. And what´s the difference, or is there really one?

When I tell myself to live, it means to live so that I can feel it. Living the life with the whole God given heart so that I can feel the whole of it. Feel the goods... and the bads too. Feel the moments I just wanna spread my arms and dance arond the dark room or the moonlit glade or the full-of-people beach... but also feel the moments I really wouldn´t want to feel. The down lows... the ones wishing my heart wasn´t that easy to steal... or wishing my heart just was made of steel.

Us, people, we have a bad habit to guard our heart too well to keep it from hurting. We´ve heard, and we´ve been taught to keep our heart safe and sound, so we tend to close it in a safe, in a treasure chest in some hidden well guarded place to keep it away from getting hurt and wounded and from getting any hard knocks from this school of life.

So, time goes by and suddenly we realize we have become old. We are part of the gray people out there hitting the knee-high sleet with the kicksledge or the walker and well, it may be true our precious and well guarded heart shaped box is somewhat untouchable by any bad things, and the heart inside is as neat and whole as new. But I guess the real guestion is: Have we really lived a single moment of our lives, or have we just survived?

I think I´d rather die than just survive. Surviving can not be the meaning of life. So I try to live instead. Through the whole thing. The ups and downs. But never stay down.
Dont know if it shows on the outside, that you should ask my friends about, but at least it feels good. And u know, when there´s a feeling around, that´s where you´ll find me. :)